Throughout my life I've spent the majority it feeling crappy about myself...feeling negative about my appearance, what I wear, whether I'm good enough.. I think a lot of things have contributed to these feelings. Like social media, celebrities, people around me. I've realised all the decisions and things I've done are to fit in and feel accepted. Although the truth is i've never actually felt accepted, not only in myself but also with people around me. I think I will always feel like this until I become more confident and happy. Until then I will continue to try and help myself snap out of this frame of mind. Not feeling happy about myself is just creating a bigger negative image in my head..it will also block me from doing things in the future. Which will probably make me feel even worse.. not only will I be feeling shitty I'll also be thinking what if..
I've always been convinced mentally and emotionally that this pain will continue until I die to be honest. I don't blame anyone for these feelings. Some people blame their parents, or how they've been treated previously. Although I've realised I have no one to blame but myself.
So I've decided I'm going to help overcome and cancel out these feelings by doing several different things..
Firstly stop caring what other people have to say! It's definitely easier said than done..I'm a sensitive person and what people say about me affects me emotionally. But I've decided to block it out and carry on with my life.
Secondly do what makes me happy! I can't feel good about myself If I carry on doing things I don't want to do..
Thirdly I'm going to stop looking at other people wishing I had their life. I've realised I have a good life and I should stop wanting what others have and just make a life for myself.
Additionally I'm going to accept who I am and reflect on what I've accomplished. I've accomplished a large amount of things during my life and I should be proud of all of them!
This is a personal post.. And I hope if you are feeling the same way you should follow the steps I will be to overcoming them. It will make you feel a lot better doing so. Because your amazing and don't let anyone tell you any different.
Bye for now..J x